I trusted you

It was the last time I trusted you

cause believe me trusting you

took the hell out of me

Motherfucker, I didn't know it was all just a game

I was on the wrong train with you

You were so God damn popular

I was too blind to see

and guess I misunderstood

You wrung me up for things I thought were right

And frankly now I don't even know who I really am?

Thought your hands fit perfectly

in the spaces in between mine

But now I realise

All you got me is a memory of pain

I've bled for you, became what I was not for you

You made me cry for no fuckin reason.

I dies inside for you

You broke me, insulted me, disappointed me

What did I get after living with you for 10 fuckin long years

I guess another 10 years of fuckin misery

You call me a slut?

How can't I remember me on top of you?

The one who you're with

Deserves that title, not me

You feel sorry for me motherfucker

For me, you're nothing but a piece of shit

You made my life a hell

And now that you're not here

My life's way better

Hope every single memory of mine gives you hell

And you fuck up your life just like I did.

I won't be there when you fuck up with your life

You're on your own now bitch

Cuz I don't wanna be the one to blame

I thought you were like me

who understood the pain I feel

But now I know

I made a huge mistake

you proved to me your'e just some rottem shit

Whatever the fuck happens to you

I know I'm safe

cu you're on your own now

This was the last time I trusted you.

You might miss me sometime later

When you remember the time we spend together

When you realise I'd given so much up for you

that no other fuckin bitch would ever do..

You may say what you got to say

but I won't ever come back

All the bullshit you put me through

I just wanna break up, find a new lifestyle

and forget all the shit including you

I'm not gonna say again

I've made up my mind

I hate you so much, you disgust me

That I can't even stand you near me

This was the last time I trusted you

The script of my life

How to start, I don’t know

All I know I’ve got friends to whom I should bow
Supportive and helping at every walk of life
Full of compassion and love
They made every moment my precious time of life……..

Singing, dancing, painting in a four walled room
Can bring no more joy than just sitting alone and pass the time
Friends make my life worthwhile,
a reason to live While living the script of my life
The tunes to which we often dance in life
give us a chance to make a change and learn from them
while living the script of my life

how can I forget my best friend MINU
who’s been a guiding sweetheart from past 15 yrs and more.
It all started when she became my neighbour…
Just with 13 days of difference
She’s the one who’s understood me more than I do
Someone who’s very close to me and my heart….
Probably the first person with whom
I’ve had the best moments of life
Ever if I wanted a help I knew whom to rely on
Any small problem, my brain and heart both say
To call and ask her if she can help me…
Ever ready to help, yes she’s my BFF
No one can ever compete her in talents or be it any kind of stuff…
I can’t imagine a moment without her in my life
This way she helps me live the script pf my life….

When I was traveling thru’ the tough times
I needed someone to help me out
Then an angel came into my life
Not to forget this angel is the one
Whom I ditched for a crazy reason
{I’m sorry I didn’t understand you all these days when you were with me}
The angel I had lost for a while
The angel to whom, later on, I committed my life……..
If I were to describe him I would say “I’m short of words”
He’s sweet, bold, adorable, amiable, charming,
Tall, dark, and handsome hunk
Who at first glance took my heart away
Since the very time he came into my life,
He gave a new meaning to my life
About which I won’t lie
He showed me the way
Carried me delicately to a beautiful world of fantasy
He made me alive when I was lost somewhere
While living the script of my life……

With five female friends{SWATI, APOORVA, SHASHI, PRERNA and finally me},
we started as a band
Only we knew, how short it stood
We played pranks, and enjoyed
Our energy level never became void
There wasn’t a word “TENSION” in our dictionary
Cuz our cheers and laughter never meant to be stationary
Then came the day we dispersed
When we became upset and bid farewell
Our broken group saw a new phase
A phase it never had seen before
A phase of feeling lonely and bored
A phase when we became short of words
This is when I realized
It was all in the script of my life..
Friends play a crucial role in life
May they be in or outside the country
My school friends a lot of names to be listed in this section
Not even one to get missed out here
All have contributed a great deal
In helping me live the script of my life with a lot of zeal

BERLY is another main character in my life
He’s been my best friend for over 4 yrs
A friend having a lot of interest in video games and computer games
Not to forget his enthusiasm in football…

Loving, caring and trustworthy by nature….
SHASHI is one of my best friends
Who’s helped me out in studies
And was with me when I needed a company
I’ve known her for more than 3 yrs now
But never seen a friend as sweet and loving as she is…..

AKASH is one of my shy boy-friends{{best friend too}
A bike rider, sweet and cute by face
Helping, loving and caring by nature
Very trustworthy and true friend }
If I were to describe him in one word,
I’d say he’s INNOCENT……..

Every walk of life is a walk to remember
Till the time we’re in the tunnel of friendship
With friends, I can take any crazy chance
Or do a crazy dance
While living the script of my life
May it be a matter of love or Geometry in Maths
Friends help it pass it all thru’
While living the script of my life

For my lovely and supportive friends:-
I don’t regret the things I’ve done Or the things I’ve chosen not to do Because whatever I’ve done I must have done something right Because I ended up with you………

You are alone.........

What do you do when you know

You’ve done an irreversible mistake

You try to work things out

But nothing turns out the way you want

Each day you live in pain

Carry the burden of your long listed problems

The more you try to move away from them

More closer you get to it

Only thing that you wish

Is that when you close your eyes

Everything turns something close to normal

But you find that

Whatever you’re trying to do is a waste

You have no life

An unbearable pain is residing in you heart

And everything you love is on stake

You lose it all

When you are close to achieving the climax

You never figure out

How things work

You find the person you trusted

Turns out to be someone you never knew

You cry so hard

That one day you find

You have no more tears left to cry

All the agony is subdued in your smile

You try to be perfect

Fool people with your smile

You keep everyone as happy as possible

Let them hear what they want to

Oh you’re the best is all that you hear

But you know now they don’t really care about us

You just wish you hadn’t been so soft spoken

Everything seems so good

You get lost

You never come to know when it turns bad

You wish someone could just hear you, understand you

Raise you up higher than you ever thought

People say man’s love is mortal

So you turn to God for unfailing, never-ending love

You’re confused, doubt sometimes on His existence

Sometimes things wok,

Sometimes they don’t

Every time you pray

It seems your talking to yourself

Making a complete fool out of yourself

Just believing that someday my prayers will be heard

You can’t seem to really read all the signs

You try to find a friend on whom you can count on

But he only wants to be your lover

And finally lose even the friendship that you ever shared

By the time you realize

That you had been shitting the whole of your life

You realize you’re in the shithole

And it is impossible to get yourself out of it.

And now you know and realize you are all alone!

A dream come true

You still my heart

cam all my fears

take my breath away

make me weak on my knees

you're all i dream

you're all i need

my deepest desire

is to be with you

how can it be

you're here with me

and i'm not moved by you

every moment i'm with you

is a dream come true

in the shadows

when everyone's asleep

paint my lips

color my dreams

pull me close

wrap your arms around me

love me till you're exhausted

show me what you've got

your soul is where my heart belongs

you show me what true love is

every time i'm with you

i'm spell bound

will you tell me?

how can it be

you're here with me

and i'm not moved by you

every time i'm with you

is a dream come true.

Because I love you

Deep inside there's a rush

i can't control

whenever we dance

why do i lose myself?

why do all my thoughts lead me back to you?

i love the swinging of your hips

when you breathe out and i breathe in

i love everything about you

i fall in love with you

everytime i look into you eyes

there's something unusual

about your eyes

why do i feel a sweet pain

why am i scared of losing you

i love to hear you whisper my name

when we make love

i love everything about you

why do i always find myself

drowning in your love?

i guess it's because i love you....

Don't keep me dying

Fly away with me

spend a li'l time

i've been alone for a while

show me what true love is

i've forgotten what it feels like

please make me alive

don't keep me dying

without you i'm dying everyday

save me from the cruelty

set me free from my worries

feel me on your skin

breathe life into me

you don't know how it feels

to have nobody at my side

to wake upto dreadful nightmares

screaming your name

it's better to die

than living a moment without you

my life is like a frozen land

when you're not there

it's like there is no air

i can hardly breathe

please don't let me die

take me away.

Break away

I want to break away from my family

Break away from all the relationships

Break away so that I can fly

Spreading my wings to be where I wanna be

Enough is enough

no one respects my decision

I want to prove myself

prove to all that I am right

waiting for the perfect time

when in a flash I'd be gone

Gone with the wind to a place

where no one has ever been

to a place where no one will ever reach

I'm not a fool

I'm here on my own

I'll be gone and nobody will ever know

I will prove it

I want my space

I want my place

I'm not a disgrace

I wanna prove it

Why has everybody shut me up?

Why cant they just shut themselves up?

I dont want another backseat driver

I'm more than they can imagine

and my heart says that I'll prove it

Who are you to tell me

if this wrong or right?

can't I make everything right?

I cant let go myself like this

my life is a precious gift

I wont live on other's words

May be I'm shrunken to the world

but someday I'll prove it

when I cant judge myself

who are you to judge me

you never knew, you'll never ever know me

It may take sometime

but I'll prove that I'm not a disgrace

I'm not a mistake

I want my space

I want my place

I'm not a disgrace

Oh yes, I'll prove it

I'm scared

It's as if I'm scared

surrounded in darkness

with guns, with knives

Blood's all around, violence is all I see

I've been consuming everything

kept everything inside me

trying not to show it to anybody

fearing it would hurt them

I'm scared

scared to death

scared of the darkness around me

scared of this cruel world.

It's as if someone is trying

trying to snatch away my life

I'm not afraid of dying

But just that I'm afraid to lose you

the countdown has begun already

I'll be gone in a flash

Then what next?

everything will be a mystery

and my life a history!