A requiem

"And when you reap just what you sow

I hope from up above or down below

You understand

Your choice just mde all of us worse off

All the while you were alive and now otherwise

I never meant to be harsh

Just wished I got the old "you" back

I hope every bottle you opened

gave you what you had hoped for

Cuz for us it just didnt do the trick

Wish I could say it was better this way

But every wishful thinking brings me closer to the pain.

May be one day you're story will be told

not how great a man you were

but how wrong choices can lead you to the end

As a parable for those who'd wish to hear

There's nothing more to say

       God bless your soul."

Lie

I tried living through the lies

gave you all the love I had

But you saw right through

Can’t believe I lost my heart to you

 

I feel so sorry for you

Cuz I’m still not drunk enough to fuck

All you ever wanted is falling apart

Damned you are…chasing your luck

 

Can’t believe you tricked me

My best shot I gave

and you gave me but pain

 

Whenever we hung out

you seemed so cold

With friends around

you were somebody else I didnt know

 

Cant believe how you fooled them all

a stranger you always were

a stranger you always will be

 

I hate to even see your face

I got so confused

you got me buried in this place

Glad you chose to walk away

 

Now that you’re gone

I have my space

my tears have stopped

I’m so happy that I am not a part of your lie.

A requiem…

As I flip through the pages of my slam book

I wish if you were still here

I remember how you wanted to be a politician

how you wanted things to go your way.

 

Down to earth; hailing from a small village

Wonder if that was your destiny

You went away

Leaving everyone astray.

 

The naughty smile of yours

I remember how it drove the lasses insane

That pure innocent look; that charm

there was something endearing in your ways.

 

It happened so fast

pieces just fell; I couldn't make them stay

No one could have; it was destined.

It happened for some reasons I don’t understand

 

Wish you were here

It was much better with you my friend

All I am left with now

are the words and your dreams you once told me.

Pain is all that you gave

Did you sell your soul

Did you sell it for pride?

When you’re at the end of the road

Do you look back and see what you’ve done?

 

Does it matter now

you’ve pushed me so far, stretched me to the limits

You think love is a joke?

My dear friend you’re life is a big joke.

 

How do you feel living in dark

knowing you can’t have another try?

Do you reckon you’ve lost all sense of control

Pardon me but I’ve moved on so long ago.

 

Does is matter now

how you left me in ruins?

You’ll never get away

You’ve made so many cry!

 

Did you sell your heart

Did you trade it for fame?

Do you realise the mess you’ve made

or still go fucking everyone’s life?

 

You should have known

there’s a fine line between love and hate

You should have known clock ticks life away

 

What did you think

I’d never find out?

Boy, you must have bumped your head

cuz you thought you’d get away with that lie.

 

You’ve been living a lie

You still are…

I don’t hope you’d change

Pain is all that you gave.

So much more than that

I see forgiveness in your eyes

I feel the strong vibes

when we are together

That’s when I wish to freeze the time

stay as close; forever with you

Lifetime seems too short

and eternity just a word

to my appease my heart, my mind

If only there was a way

to make you stay

Fight is what they see us do

Only we know there’s so much more than that.

 

The endless cold dark nights

spent in each other’s arms

The way we touch, the kisses

the noises that we make

The rhythm of the heartbeat

changing with every move you make

Those breathless moments

leaving smile on our faces

could never have been a lie

You and I know it wasn’t fake

You’re not like them

and neither am I

Bodily pleasures are all they understand.

Only we know there’s so much more than that.

Wrapped up in your arms

I’m so lost, no tensions in the world

Gentle yet wild kisses

Oh..How you leave a taste on my tongue

Your touch like a morning dew on the petals

leaves me asking for more.

In love with a stranger

Young and sophisticated,

I knew he was for real

Every time he passed by

My heart skipped a beat.

He was so out of my league

but it seemed I knew him for donkeys years

I just couldn’t stop.

I was in love with this stranger

 

Lost in his dreams

Envisaging a life with him

was the only thing my mind could do.

Playing the chords of my heart

He would look me in the eyes

Give me a hickey.

Before I could figure out what the entity was

I was in love with this stranger.

 

Late night chats, endless flirts

got me all high..love drunk

how it happened, i don’t know

All I’m aware of is that I’m in love with this stranger,

the entity that appeared to me one night and therefeafter everday..

I don’t wanna die tonight

As I burn a candle

lay here by myself

I wish if somebody knew

somebody cared

somebody who’d show me a world

like he did in the past

and save me from all the mess I made

take away all this guilt and shame

allay my fear of loneliness

I am just so lost here in the darkness

 

Cuz I don’t wanna die tonight

something doesn’t feel right

wish i could trust my instincts

wish you could be mine

 

Hate for myself is on the rise

a new plan I need to devise

I am crying for help

Why doesn’t anybody listen

drinking away my sorrows

smoking away my pains

on the path of doom here I’m walking

With a heavy heart, head bowed down in shame

I’ve so many friends

but no one to blame

 

Cuz I don’t wanna die tonight

something doesn’t feel right

wish i could trust my instincts

wish you could be mine

 

however hard I try

no one seem to understand

I’ve bled too much, shed my tears

But the person I love has no idea

Just want to lie in your arms

Have my last breath, I pray

Since you’re not here

 

I just don’t wanna die tonight

something doesn’t feel right

wish i could trust my instincts

wish you could be mine